FIRST BLOG

I want to keep sort of a journal. This is public, I know, but I'd like to write this blog for everyone that I know and love and for those that want to know more about me. Today was the last lamaze class that my wife, Hollis, and I will be attending before the birth of our daughter, Swayze Elle, next month. She's due to be born on my birthday, June 27th. We are both excited about her. Tonight we were asked by the instructor what we were most excited about being a parent. For whatever reason, and this seems to happen quite often, I managed to get skipped over, which isn't always a bad thing. I'd like to take the time to answer the question now and Hollis can read over the answer, which she was looking forward to hearing at the moment the question was asked, later, either when I tell her of this blog or when she finds out on her own that I'm keeping one.

The thing that excites me the most about being a parent, and this will be our first child, is just having something so sweet and innocent in my life that will motivate me to be the best person that I am able to be. I feel that I want to be the best father ever for Swayze Elle so that she can grow up knowing that she is loved and that I cared for her and her mother so well. Desiring that Swayze grows to be the best person that she can be, I want to make sure that I'm doing the best that I can to be a good example to her and show her that I love her, therefore; I desire to keep the commands of the Lord, Jesus Christ.

My thoughts are scattered here, but I think that every parent must understand what I'm feeling. I'm sure that every parent starts out with this mode of thought- that they're going to be the best ever. That they're going to make sure that there is little heartache for their child, especially heartache that is caused by them- the parent. Am I right to assume this?

I'm sure that my parents started out thinking this way, even though it didn't end up working out quite the way that they had hoped. I hope they both know that I still love them. I hope my brothers- all four of them, that I still love them as well. I think about every member of my family often. I hope that they all think about each other often. I hope that we will all one day be together forever. How that might work out, I don't know. But I know someone who does know how this can be and I want to be like Him.